Shitstorm Redirection???

Dear Ah Mei,

Recently I feel flooded with thoughts like:

-People don’t really care about me

-There must be something wrong with me

-Life is so hard

At first I didn’t want to admit I felt this way so I kept trying to be positive but the feelings persisted and I relented allowing myself to speak more freely about how I felt and all the people that had wronged me.

This felt great initially. I started sharing about how much I had to take care of myself growing up and how my husband wasn’t the knight in shining armor that I had hoped for and how my in laws hated me…

It was nice to have people empathize with me and honestly for the first time, I kind of liked that pitying look people gave me. But then, those good feelings seemed to peak.

When I talked about being wronged, it felt like I was dealing with diminishing returns. The more I “shared,” the more miserable I felt and my body started hurting.

I want to feel better and I am pretty sure my sharing has something to do with me feeling worse.

Can you help me? What should I do?

Sincerely,

Needs Redirection